Rekha at 51 still looking for Mr Right

Bollywood diva Rekha even at 51 says she still hopes to meet her ideal man. "May be I'm being unreal and impractical, but I'm not in denial. If I find someone who's willing to share me with my fans, I might change my mind," Rekha says.

"If I had a man, I'd just be devoting all my attention to that one person. I'll take out his clothes, personally monitor his menu, prepare the lunch and personally deliver it to him."

But Rekha, the star of the original Umrao Jaan, doesn't crave for children.

On her glam appearance, she says, "I don't have to spend hours planning and executing my clothes and makeup. I've done it for 40-odd years. I can't bring myself to spend more than 15 minutes on makeup and clothes."

The diva who ruled a many hearts, has remained a loner and still maintains her single status. However Her high-profile relationship with Bachchan always remained a gossip issue.

"Loner is just a word. It means I spend most my time on my own. Going by my nature, it's the most comfortable situation to be in. My god! Think of all the time I get to reason out things, not analyse situations, that's such a waste of time. But you've to analyse things. And I never consciously created that time. It was bestowed on me," says Rekha.

I never thought I'd be home alone, with all my sisters married and gone. I never thought I'd not have my own family, my own children.

So does she regret not having any children? "Not any more. I do not miss children. Even if I find the ultimate man to have babies with, it'd be very unfair to my priorities. Because if I have a baby, I won't be able to focus on anything else. Then what happens to the babies all over the world with whom I'm connected?"

Well, if you have the power to be Rekha then you better be prepared to reach out to anyone who wants to reach out to you.

When asked if aging, illness and the fear of loss of beauty - bothers her she says, "If I let these thoughts affect me, I wouldn't be able to be creative. I'm petrified of falling ill and going to the hospital. However, disasters are a part and parcel of life. I cannot avoid them. But when a catastrophe happens, I'd like to see it as a signal to go into another phase of my life. So, in a silly masochistic way, I welcome pain because it will help me grow."

While the yesteryears top-notch actress always looked picture perfect, a strange fact about Rekha has been that she never let any make up man do her make up for she always relied upon herself in deciding what goes best for her looks.

"That's true. Not even Mickey Contractor, whom I adore, has ever done my makeup. His hands start shaking. I really wish someone would come forward and take over the responsibility for my clothes, makeup and styling. I envy stars who have people to do everything from hair to dialogues. Nowadays I get films where I've to think about sets, co-stars."