Monday, May 14, 2007

Sanju's candid confession

Even as he tries to veil his anguish with a smile, his eyes give away his inner turmoil. "Please don’t grill me about the case, the matter’s subjudice and I can’t talk about it," he requests at the onset. But talk about work, love and life and he pours his heart out.

From reaching dizzying heights to unfathomable lows his life’s one roller coaster ride. So, when the going gets tough, what keeps him going? "God, love and good wishes," he says. "Love is extremely important, be it of parents, of siblings, of friends or of fans. To love and to be loved is a big achievement in itself."

Talk about love and can his ‘good friend’ Maanyata be far behind. "She’s an integral part of my life. In fact, she’s the most important person in my life." But marriage doesn’t seem to be on his mind for now. "Let the case get over, then we’ll see. I’m not thinking about it now," comes a candid confession.

Isn’t working under so much stress difficult? "No, on the contrary, I find solace in my work," he says. Ironically, while his verdict is being awaited, Dutt plays a cop in his forthcoming film, Sanjay Gupta and Ekta Kapoor’s Shootout At Lokhandwala. Refuting rumours about him doing a guest appearance in the film, he says, "No, I’m very much there throughout the film." Recalling an incident, he reveals, "In 1991, during the real shootout at Lokhandwala, I was shooting in Chandivali studios, when top cop AA Khan requested us to lend them some shooting lights. Never in my wildest dreams had I imagined that I would be playing him in a movie based on that particular incident."

Reflecting back, is there any incident he would want to erase from the past? "Not just an incident, I wish I could erase some phases of my life altogether," he says and on an emotional note adds, "But I wish, I could somehow get my dad back. I’m missing him immensely." Admitting that he’s always been hasty and emotional in his decisions, he adds, "I’ve always let my heart rule my head. It’s been both — my greatest strength and my weakness."

So, what’s he looking forward to in life? "I want to put a lot of things behind me and be able to concentrate on my career and my family. Trishala is pursuing a degree in forensic science from one of the most esteemed universities abroad. She’s made me very proud and I’m looking forward to spending more time with her. I’ve lost so much of her growing up days. I want to make it up to my daughter." As far as political ambitions are concerned, he’s very clear. He doesn’t have any! "One in the family is more than enough," he laughs.

On a more serious note he adds, "I’ve had my highs and lows, I’ve made mistakes and I’ve learned from them, people have been hurt because of me and I have been hurt because of some. But you move on. And that’s what I want to do. Isn’t this what life is all about?"

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